oct.30.2012
It all started on a windy night at Hilton “ilmangaf” when i realized that i hate life. Nobody really cares about me and i hate every single thing that relates to being alive.
I woke up at 3:25 a.m. and made a list of things i should do to satisfy myself. I tried to sleep back, but thoughts were crowding in my mind. I had this idea of death, that it’s much easier than actually living, but then i disagree and tell myself that every human is here for a reason. This idea has been haunting me…I went back to sleep atlast.
I woke up again at 12:00 p.m. because of the vibration of my phone. Reading messages relating to school or boring stuff is so not cheerful. I got up and got cleaned up. We have this huge garden and its my favorite relaxation place. i sat there for hours, thinking……
you all readers think that my story has started, but i tell you, my story has just begun……
My name is Dalal, i’m 17 years old and i’m a senior. I’ve been through alot this year. i feel fat when i”m 50 and i feel so ugly and i feel that i’m unwanted.
People have always disagreed ,but i know ina ga3deen ejamloony. Sometimes i have this erge of being loved by someone that could love me back, but again who cares anymore. I was so jealous of the other girls because they were wanted and they were happy at all times. Why cant i be like them, what is wrong with me?
I got bored sitting alone in the garden. I went to my room and opened my laptop. I clicked straight at weight loss videos. I found a video that could make me lose weight really quick and insanely.
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