Chapter 30

I woke up but couldn't move nor open my eyes.

I heard whispers and got scared.

My heartbeat went faster, since the monitor went furious.

I calmed down a bit slowly.

Kept my lungs steady.

I wanted to scream, hold on to somone..but i just coudln't.

I had no abilities to make an action or anything. 

So i kept thinking, remembering memories.

My first thought was my elder sister.

We used to fight 24/7 over clothes and being over dramatic on everything we see hehe, too funny to just think about it.

And my younger brother, i used to wrestle with him big time, he would bleed from his feet or elbow but he wouldnt give a shit about it because he liked punching me in the face.

I suddenly remembered how fa6oom and i met. It was probably billion years ago when i accidentally spilled pepsi on her in school, i thought she hated me that instant but we kept on laughing that damn moment, tha's when i knew she had the purist heart. Fa6om is so kind and warm-hearted. Out of all my friends, she was the one i always felt comfortable around.

I wanted to cryyy. I wanted to go. I feel like im trapped in a cage and cant get out, not even having the ability of trying.

Someone held me hand.

It was definatley a girl's hand, probably fa6ma's.

"Dalal itha tsm3eeny aw la2 ana fa6oom" she cried.

"Tkfain saway shay! Rmshay aw r39ay 3ala eedy aw 7arkay ay shay bas gomay yr7am omich gomay" she cried so bad i could feel her head next to my arm.

I felt like hugging her.

I felt like holding her.

I just couldn't.

Someone else came and held my other hand.

"Dalal ana m7amad tkfain ay shay bas 6amneena" he said.

His voice weakned.

All i could do was listen and die from the inside.

A bit later, someone knocked on the door then held my hand and took the drip and probably placed another one, i figured it was the nurse.

Im sick of it. So i just sat there, as if i had a choice. 

I prayed to god, to forgive me for all the sins i have caused.

I prayed until my brain exploded.

I went blank, slept.

Back concious, i guess a bit later.

I kept on praying. Talking silently with my imaginary parents.

I feel like im dead.

Someone came next to me,

I can feel the warmth of their breathe,

That person held my hand, muscular i guess.

"Dalal ana m7amad" he said.

"Yalait law ta36eny eshara inich ga3da aw tsm3eeny..." He said.

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Chapter 29

... I tried to push him off.

"Yousef !" I said.

But he kept undressing me. I almost cried. 

"Yousef shfeek" i said.

He kept telling me im beautiful.

I had tears falling down my face. He took off my shirt ! I started yelling from the bottom of my lungs. 

"FA6MAAAAAAAAA!!!!" I shouted. 

The door was locked and fa6oom kept pushing it.

I cried and tried to push him away.

He hit me with a bottle on my shoulder. He hit me again on my head. I lost it. Everything was black.

I lost it.

I woke up in a white room. Feels like my misery started all over again. I got up as fast as i could and tried to run but noticed my arm was bleeding seems like i ripped the niddle by accident. My head spun, way to dizzy.

I yelled and cried and saw fa6om running towards me. 

She hugged me and wiped off my tears. I was confused, alarmed, dead-like.

"Fa6oom" i said.

"Halla 7abeebty" she replied.

"Shga3d y9eer w shnu 9ar ?" I asked ,shaking.

"Hadday a39abich la tkhafeen fahma sh8a9dich" she said.

I looked at her.

"Yousef broo7a wagaf laman shaf dam yanzl mn rasich" she said.

I cried.

She hugged me.

I cant believe this.. Yousef the one person i used to feel safe around, turned out to be the one person i should be scared of.

Howcome his smile kept all those feelings away.

I tried to breath.

"7abeebtyy fee a7ad na6rich bara" she said.

"Mno ?" I asked.

"M7amad" she replied.

Wow.. Great to have someone that would ne there everytime you fall into a hole, and that person is ready to get you out of it.

Fa6oom is much more than that, that's why i dont call her my rescuer i just call her my sister. 

I got up a bit and fixed my hair. Then wrapped myself with the blanket and held the coffee fa6om got me.

He came in.

Handsome as usual.

He came in pissed. I was confused.

He sat next to me and fa6om headed out.

"Shlonich dalal ?" He asked. His face was red.

"L7mdla" i replied, with a weak voice.

I felt a tick down my chest, almost a scratch.

"Hal kalb waina bnaktha lyom" he said.

"Haddy m7amad ma 9ar shay" i said, scared.

"Shnu ahady l khara kan by'3ta9bich wintay 3ady walla chna 9ar shay" he said.

"La shnu 3ady 3ndy bas ana mo mist3da ina twa9ikh eedik 3alay walla ina ismy yntshr bldeera" i said.

I felt another tick, but this time i felt pain and gave me a hard time to breath.

"Dalal ma 3ndy mani3 awa9ikh eedy 3ashanich.." He stopped talking.

 He probably saw me closing my eyes hard trying to breath.

" dalal shfeech?" He asked.

I was paralyzed i couldn't talk nor move. I was into that third world.

I was dizzy and felt dead. I heard loud beeps and felt light and noise, people coming in. I went unconcious.

I woke up but couldn't open my eyes. I was speaking but couldn't open my mouth. I wasn't moving.

I heard fa6oomz voice..crying.

They were whispering.

I felt like someone was coming closer.

"Dalal itha tsm3eny aw la2, t7sen aw la2, ra7 a'6il weyach 6ool ma ana 3aysha" that was fa6oomz voice crying.

I fixed the puzzle, im in a comma, i am paralyzed. 

Chapter 28

..And looked straight at him. 

I smiled.

"Dalal? " he said.

"Halla" i replied.rf

"Ya zeenich wallah" he said.

I blushed.

We walked inside and ate lunch. I was starving literally. 

We stayed in the living room for a bit then fa6oom and i started doing school work while yousef plays with my hair. 

In about an hour i finished all my work, i was so tired bas ma gdart aroo7 anam cuz yousef was here. So i decided to watch a movie w 3ala 7a'6y they were airing the movie "friends with benefits" w yousef w fa6oom always wanted to watch it la2ana y'6a7k, god knows why yousef was diggin it. I went to make some popcorn and get sodas. Fa6oom started the movie while yousef was sitting. 

I went to sit next to him and fa6oom sat next to me.

He wrapped his arms around me. I kissed his neck. I smelled amazing. That manly kinda perfume where you get suddenly swooned..

.hehe ya that one. We kept watching the movie until the wind breeze came by and the movie was heating up, things kinds got uncomfortable. so i headed to my room to change. I opened the closet to get something warm. I made sure my door was closed then took off my jacket. Someone held me from behind. I turned around. It was yousef. i smiled.

"Hehe yousef yalla barra babadil" i said.

He stayed silent and started kissing me. Next thing i know his hands were on my shirt. He started taking them off. I kinda felt very uncomfortable:/ 

Faj2a he opened my pants zipper. 

"Yousef shga3d tsawi ?" I yelled, maybe almost cried. 

I slapped him, but he wouldn't stop..

To be continued....

Chapter 27

Chapter 27
december 1, sunday
I woke up at 8, already late for school. I washed then got dressed then went outside to the living room and sat toeat breakfast with fa6oom. She bought me bucks. We were talking about school work. We got up then fa6om hugged me... I felt like crying but i kept it in. She tried to calm me down and told me yousef is going to be perfectly fine. But yet i dont know why the fight happened.
We went to the car abd headed to the school. No one in school knows what happened l7mdla ya3ny mako gossip. Every thing seemed so normal. A9lan no one knowa about my relationship with yousef. I went to my classes and it was an ordinary school day.
Fa6oom and i headed to the car.
" dalal shfeeechh mikta2ba ?" Fa6oom asked.
"Mafeeny shay" i said.
"Yalla 3ad t3almeeny feech ?" She said.
"Fa6oom ga3da a7aty yousef" i said.
"Ma feeh ila l3afya" she said.
Then she calmed me down.
We were in the car 15 minutes so far. Suddenly my phone rang...YOUSEF.
I answered immediately.
"Aloo?" I said.
"Halla dalal" he sounded weak, tired.
"Yousef sh9aar ams waink ikhtifait w laish u were in a fight" i said yelling at him.
"Hadday dalal mafy shay kan soo2 tafahum" he said.
"Shnu ahaddy sh9ar ? Int al7een waink ?" I repeatedly asked.
"Dalal 7abeebty kanat bnt 3amity mny w ihya tadry ana knt b hilton w fee wa7ash mit7arsheen feeha b8ilat adab.. R7t akalmhom b 2adab ohma klab ma yfhom w rab3y kila mnak fza3oli" he said... Then continued.." Dalal 7abeebty mafeny shay la t7ateen bas ra'6at w inshalla bacher mdawem" he said.
I stayed silent. I started crying bas bdon ma yousef ysma3.
"Dalool la tabchen tkfaain" he said.
I didnt answer.
"Dalal? " he said.
I still didnt answer.
"7ayatiii ?" he said.
I was quite but blushing w it was on speaker fa fa6oom tsma3 w mayta w ihya tgol cute b9oo6 wa6y.
"Galby?" He said.
I stayed silent.
"A7ibich" he said.
"Amoot feek" i replied.
Ya 7alat 9oo6a w ohwa tawa gayem mn inoom.
"Dalal ?" He said.
"3yoonha" i replied.
"Fdait.hum" he said.. Then continued.."dalal bagolich shay" he said.
"Gool" i answered him.
"Wainich al7een?" He asked.
"W9alt l chalet Hatha ily btgola " i laughed.
"Laa shay thany" he said.
"Haaa yalla gool" i said.
"Uuufff 7ady dayekh l mohim bagool ina sakray jan6itch ilsa7ab maftoo7" he said.
I turned around and saw him.
I ran and hugged him so hard.
I literally jumped. I felt like i havent seen him for a really long time.
 I could feel his heartbeat and warmth.

"Hehe sh7alat ree7tich" he said.
I laughed but elegantly.
"A7bk" i whispered.
He hugged me harder.
"Wallah ana akthar" he said.
I wrapped my arms around his neck.
And looked straight at him.
I smiled.
"Dalal? " he said...
To be continued....

chapter 26

i opened the door w saw the guy with a husky…obviously my husky. i got so happy, then saw yousef next to me. i held the dog and had a bit of fun then went to talk with the guy for the payments..faj2a fa6oom called me..

"fa6oom la7tha badfa3" i said.

"laa7thaa" she said and grabbed my arm.

wila i saw the guy yamshy…

"haw laish misha badfa3laaaa" i said.

"ta3aly khala9 mala da3y" yousef said and handed the dog.

"ma fahamt" i said. 

"khala9 agoolich yalla dakhil labsatly g9eer w bard" he said…wla astaw3b ina he bought me the dog.

i was mad at first..but then went back to reality and thanked him.  isa3a 6 blail il dinya thalimat..the girls headed to bucks to get some coffee while 3azooz jahaz il ga3da bara wl bbq w ana w yousef ga3den 3al ba7ar nitmasha. he held my hand then wrapped me around his arms…i stopped and looked at him..and..

"yousef..a7bk" i said.

he looked at me then hugged me and held the back of my hand and kissed my forehead.

"amoot feech" he replied. 

His eyes were charming. he was my own live heaven. distracting me from all the pain i have been through, my shield.

he played with my hair..tickled my neck. i stared at the sky, took a breathe. the wind breeze gave me the chills.

"dalool bardana ?" he asked.

"shway" i replied.

he hugged me tight. he was warm, inside out. i wrapped my hand around his neck. he held my waist. i look straight at him. he kissed my neck then up to my checks then my lips. strange how the small things build up a mountain. we went back to the bbq. 

i went to my room to change into warm clothes. i wore a black hoodie with leggings. let my hair down. realised my hair is getting longer. i went back outside and sat on yousef's lap. 

"banat" i said.

"halla" they replied.

"bacher baroo7 shopping okay ?" i asked.

"eee yabeela…any new clothes" fa6oom said.

the husky….well i called her lola sat next to us. 

we talked, had fun, laughed until midnight…the girls had to leave.

3azooz took them home. yousef and fa6oom stayed. 

"shwaay w raj3" yousef said.

"hhaa wain " i said.

"kaa mny bas shway" he said…that was strange.

anyways we stayed for half an hour ..w ma ya so ana w fa6oom timashaina.. will as hoof yousef. ma shabab, wayyyyd. 

garabt shway. ga3adt ashoop wila faj2a the guy in front of yousef hits yousef. i yelled. the boys were fighting…7ail. yousef was busting someone's face. there was blood. i wanted to run to yousef but fa6oom grabbed my arm and shut my mouth with her hand. 

my heart just stopped watching yousef getting hit. police came and took them all. i cried on fa6oomz shoulder. she took me back to chalet i was shocked, couldn't sleep…all my energy drained. i slept…finally two hours later. 

 

chapter 25

saturday ….yom mayet. i woke up early strangely. went around the chalet. i always wanted a husky so bad. checked instagram for some bl kuwait. there were newly born huskies. they weren't that expensive. i called the account itself. 

"aloo?" i said.

"halla" the guy answered.

"halla wala..law sama7t ga3da ashof ur insta account w chna 3ndkom newly born huskies. " i said.

"ee walla 3ndna bntain w 9bay wl wa7d b 470 dinar" he said.

"walla zain ok aby bnaya bas are they trained shway?" i asked.

"ee" he replied. 

we talked about the prices and wen will they get the dog then yousef called.

"aloo?" i said.

        "hallaa" he said…9oo6a nom

"haw tawik gaym mn inoom " i said. 

"ee akhh sima3t sharaitay husky" he said.

"mo tawk gayem hehe ee sharait" i said. 

"ee yo9aly akhbarich..dalool…?" he said.

"halla?"i replied

"a7bch" he said…9oo6a narrr

"hmmm ..amoot feek" he said

"dalool wainich ?" he asked.

"ga3da 3al ba7ar" i replied.

"shlabsa?" he asked.

"shorts w sweater" i said.

"lbsay 3adl bard bara" he said. 

" sh3arafik ?" i said.

"kany warach" he said.

i turned and he was really there. i ran to him and hugged him hard. i swear i could hear his heartbeat. he was so warm and damn  muscular. he smelled amazing.

"khara3tny kalbbb" i said.

"labsa shorts hal g9ir yalla jdamy la akfakhich" he said. 

"hehe ok" i said. 

i turned around w kint baroo7 il chalet …he pulled my hand and held my face…gave me that one kiss. i laughed. then went back to the chalet. i woke up il tanbal fa6oom. then ga3adt l gala ma3a yousef, waiting 7ag halla w mneera w fa6oom w 3azooz ysharfoon -.-  

we sat bl 9alla w fat7en bab il ra2eesy.

"dalool..?" he said.

"halla" i said.

"fee bbq ilyoom ?" he asked.

"i think..madry khal as2al fa6oom. 

he got up then sat very closely to me. i look at him. then he became closer. i smiled. he came a lot closer. close enough to hear his heartbeat goin ..din-din-din-din. he wrapped his arm around me and kissed my forehead. i blushed so bad wla fa6oom tyi which led to disastrous awkwardness. 

"hellooo" she said with an awkward face.

"heey" ana w yousef answered.

i got up then went to the kitchen..i heard footsteps coming closer..fa6oom.

"kalbaaaaaaa ambay that was so awkward bas 7ada cuuuute" she whispered. 

"ga9raay 9oo6ich ftha7teenaaa" i said.

"okkkk" she said. 

i got some sodas and chips then went back to the 9alla..7a6ait il akil on the table tawny bag3ad wla yousef grabbed me w 7a6any on his lap and held my waist. then played with my hair …hehe. fa6oom started makin woo sounds so i shushed her. halla and mneera came with bucks and we went walking on the beach until 3azooz came ..then we started getting il fa7am ready for the bbq. i went to get a jacket it was definitely getting cold. yousef came with me...which was weird. 

i went to my room and got a black hoodie ..i turned around and found yousef. he's sooooo tall. 

"kharaa3tnyyy" i said.

he held my hand then down to my waist..damn sure my heart skipped a beat. he bit his lips then looked at mine. he kissed me once, twice…three times..i placed my arms on is shoulders, pulled his hair..and he leaned on the wall. he's so tall i felt so tiny…then the doorbell rang which ruined our beautiful moment..i went to open the door.. 

to be continued…...

chapter 24

he looked right through me. i pushed him away. 

"int yanait..min9ijik u think in a ra7 a3ady hal shay w we would be together ?" i said. 

"madry walla madry ..bas the only way shifta ina agdar atgarab mnich mn hal shay ya3ny" he said. 

he tried to touch my hand bas i turned and went back to the ballroom. all of a sudden i have this huge smile on my face. m7ammad was there hehe.

"haww.. shga3d tsawi mnyy ?" i said.

"hehehe fa6oom galat ina fee 7afla w galatly ina ur comin fa yait afaj2ch" he said…then had that charming smile. 

yousef came in. i had goosebumps. weird how much i hated him inside, bas when he touched me ,it felt like he'll never let go. 

i saw him y6la3 mn il ballroom. i had no idea why but my heart told me to run after him before it's too late. so i ran fast with those hells. 

"youusef" i yelled.

he turned around surprised. i went closer and closer. i kissed him. i felt chills all over my body and it was cold but mostly i felt love. he held my hand, and looked right at my eyes. he smiled. 

"giltlich ina intay ajmal wa7da bl 8a3a ?" he said.

i laughed. 

seems that one bad boy fell in love with that one girl who was lost and found her way out. 

we went back to the ballroom but acted normal. i went back to m7amad.

"3asa ma shar laish chi rika'6tay?" he asked me. 

"la mako knt aby shay mn wa7da gabl ma tamshy" i said.

"hehe ok" he said.

he took my hand and slow danced. i look at yousef and smiled. he gave me that jealous look. i gave him that look that made him go wicked. we had our slow dance ana w m7amad..he's a really great person to come here makin sure I'm okay. when the party practically ended ana wl banat radaina fa6oomz chalet. 

i went to fa6oomz room, the room that I'm stayin in with fa6oom. i took off my make up and changed. then sat on the bed. feeling just simply happy.

"agool inaty laman rika'6tay bara shsawaitay …ya3ny askhara ga9aitay 3ala m7amad" she said.

"r7t kalamt yousef.."i said.

"chathaaabaa sh9ar" she yelled.

"uuuuush siktay fitha7tenaaaa..mako bas i realized shay…" i smiled " 7ail a7ba" i said.

"waaayyyyyy kalba cute ..i bet 9ar shay thany bas ma taben tgolen yalla ma3alaih hehe" she said. 

we chatted a little about the party then went to sleep..i tried to go to sleep, but after that one kiss, felt like i don't wanna sleep. i just wanted to stay awake. 

 at midnight yousef texted me. 

"dalool" he said.

"3yoonha" i replied. 

"fdait.hum…a7bch" he said. my heart skipped a beat.

"amoot feek" i said. 

"tadreen shly a7b feech ?" he asked.

"shnu?" i replied. 

"ur smile, ur scent, '6a7kitich, sowalfich, 3yoonich w raby 3yonich tas7rny, ur endless stories, ur love for dogs, most of all galbich <3" he said.

suddenly it felt like he's the guy who's heart will beat crazy and say to all his friends "she's my baby". he gave me the chills. 

i ant him that blushed faced emoji. we chatted a bit until i fell asleep hehe. 

chapter 23

friday…or may i say party day. i woke up isa3a 1 pm. the girls were so worried 3an ily 9ar ams, so i explained. i had no reason to go to the party…a9lan i don't feel like going bas il ban at 7anaw 3alay b shakl mo 6abee3y …so I'm going. 

 i sat bl living room w i opened il bab il ra2eesy 3al ba7ar. i just hating yousef w fa3ayla. fa6oom came and gave me a pep talk.  the party starts isa3a 8:30. al7een isa3a 5. the girls and i sat bl chalet kl wa7da excited akthar mn il thanya hehe. tighadaina then we headed 7ag il salon. i did my hair nafs tasree7at najwa karma on arabz got talent bl da3aya i loved it. w fa6oom did her hair wavy. w halla sha3arha in a bun. w manoor khalita straight mn foog w wavy mn ta7at.  after the saloon r7na nsawy our make-up. they all did that simple but wild look. i had my fierce make-up on..let all people wonder how I'm still standing on my feet. isa3a 8 i wore my dress w ill girls were waiting for me bl living room. finally 6ala3t mn il room. the girls were dead shocked. 

"dalal b9ara7a agolich eyaha ..kl ily 2athach b hal denya w raby 3omrah ma ra7 yit.hanna la2anna '6ayag khulg wa7da jameela mithlch w galbha abya'6…w law il mar7ooma lal7eenha 3aysha chan galat ya 7alat bnayty 3asany ashofha yom 3irs.ha" fa6oom said. she got me tearing up and she was so happy. god knows how much i love her. we all hugged had that friendy moment. then headed to the limo. turned up the music. wi9alna il 8a3a isa3a 9 pm. i got out of the limo. ppl were starin.. dakhalna il ballroom. they had arabic songs…6ab3an rashood. girls were haven fun. hehe saw 3azooz. 

"a77 shal jamal wallah a7lakom dalool" he said and i laughed my ass off.

"laa 3ad shda3wa" i said.

"laa bas b3yooni fa6oom 6al3a gumar" he said. wooow 3azooz started flirtin. fa6oom blushed and acted hard to get. i saw yousef ..bas i pretended that i didn't. fa6oom 3a6atny sign that hez comin towards me. i went out 9oob il balcony.. cuz the ballroom is on the 6th floor. sawait roo7y that i need some air. kan waray. 

"shtaby ?" i said…really angry. 

"dalal la7'6a …adry inich m3a9ba haday shway" he said…the he continued " dalal fee mara yalich hal i7sas ina shftay sha59 w bas 7asaita in a widch t3arfeen hal sha59?" he asked.

"la2 w maby a3arf" i said.

"dalal adry inich 7asaity feeh la2ana klna chthy ya3ny.. dalal mn yom shftch b hilton wana maynoon feech w raby gmt a7lm feech" he said.

i was flattered but still had that angry face.

"dalal wallah w allah ysh.had iny mo gadr at7amal bo3dch…agolch ana maynoon feech" he said. he came closer..and closer. 

he held my waist ..then looked straight through me.. damn his eyes were simply beautiful. he was biting his lips then looking at mine. 

to be continued….

chapter 22

nov.29

it's thursday!!…school went normally with 3azooz's goofing off actions and fa6oom being the love bird. how cute…never thought fa6oom would be that kind of person. i guess that's why they call it blind love. laman rja3na l bait i took my stuff 7ag chalet fa6oom. 

"fa6oom baroo7 ilyom ashtry dressss ma3ndy i need a new one!" i said.

"ee ilyom nro7 ay mojama3 fee dresses 7lwen" she said. 

i nodded ok. we packed our stuff and charged my phone while doing that. when we finished i called the driver to take us there. i took my bags and fa6oom's to the car, while she ordered food 3ashan 3ala ma yo9al. on the way there, i was on the phone with yousef 3ashan adaleh il mokan. wi9alna mnak at 4:30 pm. we took the bags 7ag il room. the doorbell rang. i ran to the door and opened it..it was yousef.

"heeey ta3al ka il living room …la7'6a bas afta7 il ban il kahrijy…" i said.

Best part about fa6oom's chalet in a ohwa ar'6y w laman afta7 ban il kharijy the ocean water is so close!

"hehe nice sweat pant mn holster 9a7?" he said.

"ee 7ada a7b ily chii they so comfortable w 3amaly w b nafs il wakt shakla 7lu" i said.

i ran to the kitchen to get some colas. i gave one 7ag yousef.

"agool dalal mita ur birthday ?" he asked.

"january 1" i answered. 

"okh wanasa!" he said…excited lol.

"la mo lahadaraja " i said.

"ee laish ?" he asked.  

"madry ya3ny its not my special day fee new year w chii" i said.

"aha 3ad ily yshoofich ynsa new year b kobra" he said in a deep voice. 

i blushed so haaaard wayhy galab a7mar 7ail!!

"la shda3wa" i said. 

"9ij wallah" he said.

the doorbell rang. i got up and opened the door it was halla w mneera w 3azooz. we all sat bl 9alla.

"haaa wain il akl yoo3ana!!" mneera yelled.

  "yalla ba3ad shway yo9al" fa6oom said.

fa6oom was looking at 3azoz hehe she looked so cute!

"agool shabab btro7on il 7afla bacher?" i said.

"ee bas aby jacket suit" yousef said.

" w laish mo ma3a il pants ?" i asked laughing.

"laa 3ashan a6la3 nikta ..a9lan a7la jackait ma3a jeans w v-neck white shirt" he said.

"oooh ya 3ainy 3al fashionistaa" i said laughing.

we all laughed w the doorbell rang..il ma63am wi9al. we all ate then ga3adna 3al bazar bara.

"yal 3eyal tara ba3ad shway b namshy ana bashtry a dress 7ag bacher!" i said.

"ee klna nro7" the girls said.

"laaa2 laa2 3athab ana w yousf ga3den ya 7lwen intaw ro7aw ba3dain nit3asha mnii" 3azooz said. 

we all laughed! 

"3ala ma rj3oon badg 3ala rab3na eyon" 3azooz said.

we all agreed on that. the girls and i headed inside the chalet to change and go to the mall.

when we arrived first thing came to mind was starbucks..so i went and ordered a white mocha of course and then went for some dress shopping. we specifically went this fancy shop cuz it had loads of really pretty dresses. we went inside and started looking for the "dress". i was looking at them… something caught my eye. it was a black dress, even though it was black, it looked really pretty. especially tight on the curves but not that tight..i loved it. 

"banat lgait my dress bas it's a surprise!" i yelled.

"laa bijschoof yalla 3ad" the girls yelled.  

"la surprise" i said.

we all payed for our dresses then headed back to the chalet. i saw yousef and 3azooz with their friends so i didn't wanna bother. i heard a voice mn b3eed. i turned back wla yousef was calling me. i guess he saw me.

"hallaa" i said.

"ha ilbaji weyach?" he asked.

"ee dakhil…ana kint baroo7 buckz" i replied. 

"ee yalla khal awadeech" he said..i honestly couldn't resist his smile.

"ee ok" i said.

we went and ordered our drinks. then walked by the seashore to fa6oom's chalet.

"shnu ily khalak t6la3 mn your old school?" i asked…looked him straight in his eyes.

"hmm..tabeen il 9ij?" he asked.

"9ij wallah ?" i mocked him.

"tathkreen mn cham shahar kntay b hilton weya rab3ch? w fee wa7d it9al kan yaby jassim ? hatha kan wa7d mn rab3y. knt shayfich mara b nafs il chalet w madry glt in a wdy at3araf 3alaich w chi…la t3a9been tikfain" he said.

suddenly, i felt insecure and not safe. i was shocked. i ran away as fast as i can, my mocha fell. he followed me..i felt his hand on my arm.

 i yelled " wakhir". 

He let go of me and i continued running back. i slammed the door open and went to my room and cried like a baby. the girls came in but i nodded that i don't wanna talk about it. i took some pills then went straight to sleep. 

chapter 21

nov.28 wednesday

i woke up on fa6oom's bed isa3a 6 exactly to get ready for school bas my hand hurts :\ mali khulg aroo7 honestly.  jahazt my bag for school, ate breakfast with fa6oom then headed out in a hurry cuz smarty fa6oom wanted 3nad pancakes! w9alna school after 10 minutes za7ma :| headed to class. 3ndy awal 79a english. yousef w 3azooz w fa6oom ma3ay b hal class hahahay bt9eer 9ai7a. dashaina ana w fa6oom dramatically. i laughed. sat next to 3azoz so there was fa6oom 3azooz ana then yousef. class went on for 15 minutes then fa6oom was annoying me by throwing erasers. i looked at her then threw on her my pencil. 3azooz wanted to throw a pencil on me wla bl ghala6 3al teacher. we all froze. classmates were all frozen bas laughing 7aaaiiiil. i noticed in a my hand got a bit purple 5ft shway bas i think its normal. yousef was laughing his ass off haha. 

"who threw that pencil????? i want an answer now ! detention for all of you until someone confesses" the teacher yelled. 

"whaaat ? are you serious what about the innocent ppl in this class ? huh you are that harsh can't believe this akhh galby akhhhh " 3azooz yelled. 7aywan drama queen.

"azeez you have detention for today its obviously you" she said. 

"noooo not me do have any evidence ?" he asked.

"no but i know its you" she replied.

"no it wasn't i won't go detention if i didn't throw that pencil" he said.

the class was silence. she continued the lesson haha. 3azooz is one of the ppl who wants to do what ever he wants. i kinda like that about him.

i continuously annoyed fa6oom n 3azeez and yousef kept laughing at us. the bell rang and we all headed to our classes normally, as usual so booored. lunch tiiiime.. 

we all sat in a circle bl playground. 

"yabeelna yam3a hal weekend" halla said.

"uuf 7ada " fa6oom said.

"wain ?" i said.

"wallah shraykom tyoon il chalet ?" fa6oom said.

"dam chalet ok" 3azooz said.

"ee ok" yousef said.

"ee ok ana yaya" i said.

"la7tha shabab wain mneera ?" fa6oom said.

"ra7at tkalam ms sara 3an l essay" halla said.

"ee ok" fa6om said.

"yo3ana" i said with a sad and puppy face.

"yalaaait bas a6al3ich mn hal mokan w nroo7 nakil bas sayarti mo ma3ay" fa6oom said.

"ana sayarti okhoy il kalb khathaha hehe" 3azooz said.

we al looked at yousef. 3a6ana kilina nathra

"ha wain taboon troo7on ?" he said. we all (girls) screamed. 

"mm 5al nro7 il marina ba7ar cuz aby akl za3tar w zeit" fa6oom said.

"eee yalla" i said. 

we all hid from the front door teacher w jumped from the walls bl playground..thankgod ma3ana shabab sa3doony wla chan manadry mno ysheelna haha.

yousef helped me jumped since 3azooz was helping fa6oom.

we all ran to the car then headed out. we all screamed and had a maniac-ish moment. 

"dalool la7ath.tich 5afeeeefa" yousef said.

"ee kalba madry ay diet msawya jisimha 5a6eer" fa6oom said, i smiled. 

yousef n 3azooz sat jdam wl banat wara. wi9alna marina w ga3adna bl ma63am.

we ordered, then ate. 

"ana 8arart ashtry sayara khala9 hahay" halla said. 

"ee zain 3ashan itha yousef ba3ad sayarta occupied intay i6al3eena hehe" 3azooz said.

"dalal mita takhthen sayara ?" 3aqzoz asked. 

"lal7een lazm y9eer my birthday 3ashan astlm klshay" i said.

"ahaa" 3azoz said. 

"lazm asawy shopping 7ag 7aflat il seniors :|" i said.

"ana ba3aaaaad" mneera said. 

"agol fa6oom tara ilyom my house ok?" i said.

"ee ok" she said. 

we all payed the bill then headed for shopping. yousef maskeen wa9alna wa7da wa7da il bait ila ana w fa6oom ma3a ba3ath r7na bait fa6oom 3ashan a5th my stuff then on our way 7ag baity.

"yousef mashkoor maga9art wallah ta3abnak ilyom wayd" i said. 

"la shda3wa" he said then smiled. he had a charming smile w can't deny he is really hot. 

w9alt baitna..fa6oom shalat the stuff w dkhalat dakhel.

"walla thankyouuu wayd" i said.

"il3afu shda3wa ma sawait shay" he said. i smiled..

"ha shlon eedich al7een?" he asked.

"a7san ill7mdlilah" i said.

"ee zain" he said. then headed to his car.

i went inside the house then sat in my room with fa6oom to do some homework.

"agool dalool madry shlon agolch bas i think i like 3azooz" she said.

"waaaaay cute chathaba" i yelled.

"siktaaay uuf ftha7teena" she said.

"haw i7na bl bait yal 7oola" i said.

"ee ok hahha" she said.

we chatted about him shway then ate dinner w ba3adha went to sleep. i thought about today shkithir stanast hehe. 

chapter 20

 i woke up at 12:00 p.m., trying to move. i saw fa6oom by my side drinking coffee. 

"9aba7 il khair" she said.

"9ab7 inoor" i replied.

"ha shlonich al7een ?" she asked.

"a7san" i said…"mita be6al3ony ?" i asked.

"madry ohwa il doctor gal mita ma tbeen bas lazm takhthen ur pills" she said.

"wai3 ba3ad pills ?" i complained.

"dalool..?" said fa6oom.

"halla" i replied.

"shftay wayh yousef laman kan maskich b 7thna?" fa6oom asked ..smiling.

"hehehe intay waktich ya5y 6al3eeny" i said. 

i tried to get up and the doctor came in then explained which pills I'm supposed to take and why. fa6oom helped me pack my stuff. 

i headed downstairs and bought some coffee from bucks. saw yousef on the way.

"hellooo " fa6oom said. 

"hallaa ha b tamshon ?" he asked. 

"ee…ha yay tchayek 3ala your stitches?  " i said.

"ee w knt bayee achayek 3alaich " he replied.

i blushed, honestly couldn't help it hehe. 

"yalla 3ayal 7mdla 3asalama" he said.

"allah ysalmk" i replied…then headed out the glass door.

my heart was beating 7ail ..dunno why.

dakhalt il sayara wla fony yrn…3azooz texted me..

"haa 6ala3tay ?" 

i texted yes.

 i headed 7ag bait fa6om w checked out mn il chalet. 

fa6oomz mom is soooo nice and cool. 

ta3ashaina w  bacher school …allah yaster bas..i went to sleep. 

 

chapter 19

I woke up on yousef’s lap... breathing heavily. I could feel his hand on mine. 3azoz came..

                “ha dalal shlonich al7een?” he asked.

                I nodded that I’m okay. I was still in shock. I looked at yousef. His head was bleeding and 3azooz jaw was bleeding I freaked out. Next thing I know… my arm was bleeding too.. fa6oom came running and crying..

                3azoz held me and took me to the hospital. My head hurts a lot, my hand felt so numb I couldn’t feel it. Blood was all over me…suddenly all I can think of is my family’s death the day I felt dark… I tried to get up I felt sick.. I layed my head on fa6om ..i went unconscious again.

                I woke up again in a white room and had my hand on wires… I saw 3azooz and yousef on  my right and halla w mneera and f6oom on my left.  Yousef had stitches on his head and 3azooz on his jaw. I got up slowly and put a pillow under my back.

                “ha shlonich al7een?” fa6oom asked.

                I nodded.

                “tabeen takleen aw tshrben shay?”  she ased..

                I nodded no.

                “sh9ar b’6ab6?” I asked.

                “wa7d 7aywan ma3nda sh’3l yay bya5thla wa7da w yn7ash” 3azooz said…he was really angry.

I smiled at him. I got up slowly and hugged him.

                “o5oy ily ma6la3 mn ba6n omy” I said …almost crying... he smiled. I looked at yousef.

                “shloon il stitches..your head ?” I asked..

                “hehe mashy il7al ..shloon edich ?” he asked.

                “mashy l7al hehe mashkoor wayd “ I said.

                “walaw” he replied.

                “inzain msikaw ily kanaw mnak?” I asked.

                “ee” 3azooz replied.  

The doctor came in and talked to me privately. He was the same doctor who took care of me on the day I was there when my family’s accident took place.

                “ha dalal gabl kntay ta5then meds your hand?” he asked.

                “ee..kl yoom” I said.

                “sha6oora inzain …al7een lazm tzeeden 3alay cream la2ana ilcut shway deep I’6ahir kan fee glass bl maw’6oo3 …ilmohim inshlla kl shay ykoon okay..” he said.

                “ok mashkoor” I said.

                “walaw” he replied.

They came back in ..

We sat down chatting w shway shway yousef talked about why he came to our school..

                “madrsty il8adeema kanat mozain w knt at.hawash wayd” he laughed… we all laughed . In the fight I noticed he had the skills of busting someone’s face. I called the nurse and asked her when can I leave and she said tomorrow morning..uuf I don’t wanna stay.

                “ana asta2thin..” he said.

                “la wain..” I said.

                “maby ath’36 3alaikom “ he replied.

                “la yuba 5alek al7en bna6lb” 3azooz said.

                “shoof tara i7na ahal walla 5alek ikil ba3dain roo7 baitk naam hehe “ fa6om said.

                “hehe inshalla” he said.

The guys started chatting and we girls chatted too. Halla was staring at yousef haha.

                “oola shda3waaaa?” I said to halla.

                “haha walla shofeh” she said whispering..

I looked at him..

                “inzain yalla sktay” I said.

Food came and we ate then yousef w halla w mneera left. 3azooz and fa6oom stayed. Fa6oom went to the pharmacy to get my meds.

                “ha dalal shlonich al7een?”  he asked.

                “a7san” I said.

                “akeed?” he said.

                “yup” I said.

                “shllon your jaw?” I asked.

                “a7san hehe” he said.

It was on the rigt side of his face. I went closer to look at it. Then I looked at 3azooz pretty much close. I ever noticed he had beautiful eyes. I could hear his heartbeat. I smiled then back off a bit.. I pretended like nothing happened. Fa6oom  came with the meds and 3azooz had to leave.

Fa6oom went to sleep and I tried. I couldn’t stop thinking I was confused…. 

chapter 18

Nov.26

                It’s Monday the most boring and longest day of the week. I woke up at 5 am to prey and get ready for school. I was thinking about that tuition 7ag yousef..its gonna be pretty awkward, why can’t the teacher just teach him. And again back to fa6oom’s question… am I going to ever be back to the “old” me ?  I’ve got the answer to that ….its yes and I guess I found my day. Since I’m awake early, I’m gonna curl my hair at the tips to make a wave. I put some black eyeliner and I wore my new blue hoodie that looked great! I woke up fa6oom..

                “yallaaa fa6oom” I said.

                “okaaaay” she said.

I went back to the living room to eat…it feels like fa6ooom is actually living with me haha. She got ready then came to the living room. She looked really shocked..i smiled.

                “shraych?” I asked.

                “ambaay mo m9adga lal7eeny a5eeran ur back w a7la!” she yelled…then hugged me.

We ate breakfast then headed outside to the car. Then on our way to school. Feels good to say that ….i’m back.

                I went to the school head held high smiling. People were pretty shocked but some were smiling.. I guess they are happy for me.  I saw halla, mneera and 3azooz. You really can’t miss their spot when they are yelling like crazy people, except 3azooz he didn’t really yell …that would be weird haha. They were really happy w all of them talking at the same time..i have the most amazing friendsssss! So I headed to my first class which is 3arabii eeeew mali 5lg … I had 3azooz and fa6ooom with me. We sat down and tried to kill time..i tried to sleep. Fa6oom was annoying 3azooz and 3azooz was pretending like he didn’t care. I have a feeling  fe shay bainhom.. who knows ?  the teacher started blabbing… I was in the middle of a silent war between fa6om and 3azooz so I thought of joining them. I tickled 3azooz.

                “shm3na ib her side?” he asked.

                “kaify” I gave him a puppy smile haha. He then annoyed me.. we had this cycle of ticling and annoying. The teacher gave us plenty of warning haha..

Best thing about 3azooz he is really an amazing clean friend. When he’s with me he acts like the real funny 3azez not the guy in front of others…nice to have his trust. And I now when he really likes someone…he annoys the lucky girl. The bell rang. I headed to math class 3azooz was with me. Yousef was there… I saw him smiling. I sat down and work..it was work day. 3azooz taught me all the the thing I missed ..only the important stuff. When the bell rang after that class I went to yousef…

                “yousef..” I said.

“halla “ he said.

“mita tabeeny I tutor you ?” I asked.

“madry mita ma tabeen ..” he said.

“lyoom in bucks… cuz yam my house.. ma3ny by driving license yet” I said…then smiled.

“la 3adii akeed e9eer 3al 6 “ he said.

“yup” I said. 

I smiled then turned around...they day went fine. The dismissal bell rang. I headed to the parking lot waiting for the girls. I waited by the wall … suddenly a guy came and pulled my hair to the floor and put his hand with a cloth on my mouth and covered my nose ...i couldn’t breathe. He had a bunch of guys with him. School students were trying to help but they were trying to push away the boys around the one who was trying to drug me. I tried to push him away… I lost it .. I yelled and cried… two minutes later the cloth wasn’t on me.. I saw 3azooz beating the fuck out of him… he was yelling cursing … then I saw yousef beating the others with his friends…

I tried to get up but I fell unconscious…..

chapter 17

……he came towards we…

                “dalal 9a7 ?” he asked.

                “ee” I smiled.

                “hehe shft il9adma b wayhich..” he smiled…”itha ma tabeen u tutor me 3adi ayeebli modaris” he said.

                “la la il9adma kanat la2ana hatha awal yoom im back to school fa wayd 6awaft bs its o adarsk..3a6ny cham yoom afham ily 6afny w a36eek 5abar ok?” I said then smiled.

                “ee ok” he said.

                I turned around…the day went normal bs wayd that stared..who cares ..classes went by and after hours the dismissal bell rang.

I headed to the door and fa6oom was with me ..we were waiting for the girls..3azooz came. As he was coming a white Porsche came towards us. The guy in lowered the window ..it was yousef, he was looking at 3azooz.

                “agool 3azooz fee yam3a ana w rab3y ilyoom blail 7ayak?” yousef said.

                “allah y7ayek inshalla” 3azooz replied. Yousef took 3azooz’s number, then looked at me, no wonder why girls were staring..he is really handsome. He smiled then went on the road. 3azooz is the bomb in school, every cool guy wants to hang out with him.

                “shftaw shlon ana zgrt shemasheny weyakm” he said laughing. I punched his chest.

                “7a9lk tamshy weyana” I said. He smiled.

                “I agree” he said..”3ad hatha gabl shway ygool inch 7lwa hehe 3shtaw” he slaughed. I acted like its normal ..bas inside I was kinda blushing.

Halla and mneera came and 3azooz walked us to our car. Then he went to his car, hummer. We drove to my house then the driver took halla and mneera to their houses.

While we were entering my house…

                “agool intay mo 3nch iI license laish ma tsogen?” I asked fa6oom.

                “oboy ygool lazm ayeeb 3alama 3ashan ya5thly sayara” she said.

                “ee bas 3alamatch 3alya mashallah” I said.

                “ee bas b English nazilatny kla mn ilessay” she said.

                “aha”  I said.

                I went to the kitchen to eat something… i did some grilled chicken with fries and some sodas. We spent time to work on school stuff w I helped fa6oom on her essay 3ashna traf3 her grade.

                “agool dalool shftay hatha yousef shlon 3a6ach na’6ra?” she said.

                “ay na’6ra? I said..pretending that I didn’t see.

                “yalla 3ad bala tifilsif shftch tibtasmain” she said.

                “ok ok ee shft sooo?” I said.

                “waaaay 7ada 7lo kalb shlon hatha da5al madrsatna hehe “ she said… “la w bitdarsena ha?” she said. ..laughing, I laughed too.

                “dalool 3ndy so2al bas ya3ny la tfakren feha wayd ok?” she said. I nodded.

                “fee ay chance trj3een the you you as in crazy w fun w maynona?” she asked then gave me that puppy smile.

                “ya3ny al7een im boring ?” I said smiling hehe she laughed.

                “ee fee” I said.

                “il7mdlaa I miss my crazy friend” she said then hugged me. We continued studying. We finished studying then ate dinner. School days are boring. About fa6oom’s question..i guess im looking for the right moment be the ‘bomb’ again. I received a text …so did fa6oom.

“you are invited to a senior party at alraya ball ..on 30^th of November from 7pm to 11pm”

                The text was from a group of my friends.

                “fa6oom wi9alch ilmsg?” I said.

                “ee btro7en ?” she asked.

                “madry kaifch” I said.

                “ohwa on Thursday fakray oo golely ok?” she said .. I nodded. We finished dinner chatted a bit then went to sleep. 

chapter 16

I woke up at 5:00 to prepare my food and fa6oom’s and to pray. It felt weird waking up not hearing my mom’s voice. I took a deep breath. When I finished preparing the food and praying, I made breakfast and woke up fa6oom, it was 6:15 A.M.

                “yallla fa6oom gomay sa3a 6 w rb3” I said.

                “ok” she whispered then got up with the sleepiest face on earth.

                I went to get dressed. I was kinda nervous going back to school. Before losing my ‘confidence’ I used to be the craziest person on earth. I was the troublemaker. Now I’m too depressed to make a sound. I’ll try to go back to the old me I guess. I wore navy blue skinny sweatpants with a baggy grey hoodie. Fa6oom wore sweatpants and a black jacket. We ate breakfast and went down to the car. 15 minutes later we arrived to the school.

                “oof mali 5lg” I said.

                “ya3ny anal y 5lg… yaay 3azooz ma3ay awal 79a bat7arash fee” she said. We went to the door.

People were staring. Mneera came.

                “haw dalool shmsawya shaklich cuuute” she said.

                “hehe fee leftover black eyeliner msawy 3ainy mka7ala”I said.

                “kaaaak “ she said.

                We went to “our” spot in the playground.  The best thing about school is when you have loads of friends and I do hahaha.

                “dalool a5eeran shfnach” faroo7 yelled.

                “hehe” I laughed. We hugged and a bunch of others jumpedand joined the hug.

                “mashallah 3alaiha 7lwa mno hathii” I heard someone from behind me. I looked back bas no one was there. Ymkn it wasn’t about me…

Halla ran towards us.. excited.

                “banat ambay..ambay fee a new guy in school walla 7ada 7lo!” she said.

We laughed.

                “haw maynoona?” fa6oom asked.

                “walla mn9ji ygoloon ma6rood mn his 2 old schools cuz  he is a troublemaker way la oo mo mnazleena sna la2ana obo ya36y money for our school or something like that 3shtaw”  halla said.

                “7mdla wshkr …ooah ca 3azooz” I said. He came towards us.

                “tawa ma nawrat ilmadrsa” he said.

                “bwijoodk” I replied.

                “w 7na ? mako ?” fa6oom said.

                “intay bas sktay ‘6almat ildnya” he said.

                “chub chub” fa6oom said ..punching his chest.

                3azooz laughed and looked at her. Ihya ma shafita bs the look he gave her wasn’t like any other normal looks….omg I think 3azooz likes fa6oom. We headed to English class. I saw the new kid…for once in halla’s life she was actually right that guy was hot! I pretended that I didn’t see him.  My phone rang…SHIT. My friends coughed and yelled until I turned off my phone. I laughed so hard. Gosh I have the best friends on earth. We entered English class and I sat between 3azooz and fa6oom. The teacher started the lesson. 3azooz started laughing…

                “is there something funny?” she asked.

                “I think 7amood is farting” he sad. We all looked back.

                “chatahb kl 5ara ” 7amood said then laughed hard. 7amood is one of 3azooz’s friends.

                “stop farting mohamad” the teacher said.

Fa6oom laughed.

                “is there something else funny?” the teacher said.

                “3azeez is burping” she said then started laughing so hard.

                “she’s lying” 3azooz said.

I started laughing so hard everyone was out of control…

                “what are you doing stop laughing you jungle of monkeys …oh my god ..please take my life I can’t handle this class and take aziz to hell” she yelled. 3azooz continued laughing. We spent the whole class laughing. The bell rang and math was next. Fa6oom has history and 3azooz was with me in math class so does the new kid.

We sat down.

“ok who has an average of 9o and above in math?” the teacher asked.

I had a 94 so I raised my hand. A couple of students raised their hands too. I had normal grades in the other classes bas madry laish im really good in math its weird. Ilmohim ..

                “ok dalal what is your grade?” she asked.

                “ 94” I said.

                “ok you’ll be tutoring yousef of everything we did from the beginning of the year and ill give you credit that could take your average to a 98 ok ?” she said. 

                “ wait who is yousef plus I missed math class for the past two weeks” I said.

She pointed at the new kid. I was shocked for a second. I looked at him then smiled.

“its ok let aziz teach you ok” she said.

I nodded ok.

She continued teaching …I was figuring out what’s going to happen next. The bell rang …break.

He came towards me……

Chapter 15

Nov.24

                It’s Saturday…a really busy Saturday. I woke up at 2:00 P.M., although I’m still tired. I had to prepare my bags and stuff cuz I had to go to my house...i don’t want to go to Aunt Dana’s house. She came yesterday to talk about which house I’m going to stay in and I told her mine. Fa6oom woke up and started packing up her things then helped me. Halla and mneera were awake so I told them to get us some coffee from star bucks. Fa6oom called her driver to take our stuff to my house. We waited for the driver to come.

                “agool fa6oom intay bt’6leen ma3ay 9a7?””I said.

                “ee akeed” she said.

                Halla and mneera came with our coffees and fa6oom’s driver arrived. We took our stuff to the car then headed to my house. My heart was beating so fast..i was nervous going back there..

We arrived.

                I looked at my house…the girls didn’t say a word. A tear dropped. I took the keys out of my pocket and opened the door. I can see fay welcoming me back and my mom putting lunch on the table and dad holding the newspaper and khaled playing with his phone and sara and yousef looking at me. I walked by looking at the rooms. I sat in the living room. Just stayed there. There was a picture of them on the wall. So I stood up and just stared at it. I cried like a baby. Fa6oom took me to her lap and tried to calm me down. She took me to my room and layed me on my bed…all i felt was my eyes closing…I fell asleep.

I woke up at 7:30 P.M. and found my stuff unpacked and my room cleaned up. I put on pj’s and went to the living room and found fa6oom studying.

                “9a7 inoom ya 7lo” she said.

                “9a7 bdanich..wain ilbnat?”I asked.

                “omhom dagaw oo galaw lazm yrj3oon ilbait 3ad kan wdhom y’6loon ma3ana” she said.

                “la 3adii 5alehom yrta7on…shga3da tsaween?” I asked.

                “aratb my stuff 3ashan afahmich shno lazm tsaween” she said.

                “aha..” I said.

I looked at the books …woah there’s a lot..:(

                “agool dalool yoom il5amees kntay 6al3a ma3a mno laman gltay 15 minutes oo rada?”she asked.

                “m7amad kan yay ychayek 3alay” I said.

                “ya7layla..” she said.

                We started organizing my stuff then studying. When we finished we ordered some pizza and then just rested. I was just wondering..remembering..maybe crying a bit.. I put my school clothes on the table then fa6oom and I went to sleep…

Chapter 14

                I set up lunch on the table and quickly ran to the ba8ala to get some sodas. While I was there I grabbed some chips, candy and chocolates. On my way out, I saw m7amad’s friends walking by the seashore. One of them waved… so I waved back. He came towards me it was too late to turn around. So I stayed by the door.

                “ha dalal shloonich ?... ana 3abdallah” he said.

                “ tamam w int ?” I asked.

                “il7mdla…laish broo7ich ga3da titmashain ?” he asked.

                “ilbanat blmadrsa oo yait ashtry cham sha’3la” I replied.

                “la yuba tara Hilton gam ye9eer shway5a6r itha tabeen shay…” he pointed at a chalet…”tara hal                 chalet malna bas ita9lay 3ala 7amood oo i7na nyeeblich iya ok?” he said.

                “ok” I said..and smiled.

We each said goodbyes, then I headed back to the chalet. I opened the door and placed the stuff on the table..the girls just arrived.

                “DALOOL YOO3ANA!!” fa6oom yelled.

I laughed.

                “ee ka 6alabt burgers mn Johnny rockets” I said.

Without a word the girls surrounded the table and started eating. I snt fa6oom a message ‘I want to talk to her privately in my room’.

                “haw shfech ?” she asked.

                “madry fa6oom ba3ad 3 ayam lazm aroo7 bait 5alty dana bas madry ma wdy aroo7 aby ag3ad ib                 baitna..baity” I said.

                “5ala9 yoom ilsabt nshoof shnsawy 3ashan itha btrdeen baitich abat 3ndch ok ?” she said.

                “ee ok” I said ….then gave her a huge hug.

Fa6oom went back to the living room. I grabbed my pills, ipod and phone then sat outside by the ocean. My phone beeped it was m7mad he texted that he wants to see me today just to check in …I said yes. I went back inside…

                “banat wdkom insawy movie night?” mneera said.

                “ee laish la2 !” halla said.

                “ee ok ana I don’t mind” I said.

                “3ayal ana baroo7 ilba8ala ayeeb popcorn” halla said and headed outside.

I went to my room and got my laptop…then started searching some good movies.

                “ok fee taken, dear john oo transformers shno taboon?” I asked.

                “5al nshoof taken oo dear john” fa6oom said and mnera nodded yes.

I connected my laptop to the TV then grabbed some pillows, blankets and set up a hoodie and jeans incase m7amad comes. We all sat in the living room with our phones waiting for halla. We heard a knock..

                “ka w9alat..” fa6oom said.

I checked by the window …it was m7amad.

                “la mo halla fa6oom 15 minutes w ayii ok?” I said,

                “… ok” she said with a strange expression.

I wore my clothes and went outside. I smiled.

                “ha shlonch al7een ..mo tg9een 3alay tgolen tamam “he said.

                “ya3ny mashy il7al..” I said.

His eyes were indescribable.

                “madry a7s iny min8amta o mo gadra afham shga3d e9eer oo shno lazm asawy oo ma asawy ..” a tear dropped…another one too. I stopped talking. I tried to breath.

                “dalal haday” he said. He held my hand to calm me down and touched my chin and looked straight through me …

                “dam ana mny la t5afeen” he said.

For a second I felt so safe…he whipped my tears. I looked straight at him….that’s when I realized I might be in love. We walked, discussing about the things my dad’s lawyer told me.

                “ha shlonich al7een?” he said.

                “a7san..bwayd” I said.

My phone rang..i have spent an hour with him.. fa6oom was calling.

                “aloo?” I answered.

                “haw dalal wainich ?” she asked.

                “yalla kany yaya ok ?”I said.

                “ok yalla bye” she said.

                “bye” I said.

I looked at m7amad. Then smiled.

                “m7amad mashkoor wayd ..lazm arja3” I said.

                “walaw… ok ..allah weyach” he said.

Each of us headed to their chalet..i held my phone slightly in front and saw the reflection of m7amad looking at me..i guess making sure that I get to the chalet safe….