Chapter 35 continuing chapter 34

He kissed my forehead and hugged me so tight, tight enough to feel his heartbeat beating next to mine. 

  I stayed silent. What the heck was he thinkin when he fell for me. Im an orphan, almost raped, im damaged, im used, im broken, im nothing.

I didnt know we were a "thing".

I looked at him silent..waiting for him to talk ...then he finally did.

"Dalal...a7bch b jnoon" he whispered in my ears.

I blushed but tried not to smile or anything.

"Dalal khala9 ana 3a6ait khabar 7ag oboy w omy ina fee wa7da b baly..w itha ma 3ndch mani3 bacher bagoolohom mno" he said.

"Haw mno laish ma gltly" i said laughing.

He started laughing and looked at me.

"Sktay bas sktay" he said and played with my hair ..which ruined my messy bun.. Well it is messy afterall.

Oh fuck..its actually happeneing, im getting engaged tomorrow .. Bas wait which of my family members will his mom talk to first.

"La7'6a m7amad omik mno ra7 tkalm ?" I asked.

"Khaltich dana.." He said.

I showed a sigh for relief.

I hugged him again feeling so safe and sound.

"Yalla ana ata2thin baro7 athakir omy b morty" he said smiling, winked to me and he just walked away. 

I had butterflies ... Ran into the chalet and yelled "FA6OOOOOM" 

"HALAAAAA" she replied so scared.

I breathed so heavily.

"Haw dalal shfeech ?" She asked.

"Fa6oom m7amad byakh6bny w oma btkalm khala danoo bacher" i said.

She screamed, i screamed and we screamed.

But then i cried and she got confused.

"Dalal shfeechh?" She said.

All i could think of was my family.

"Dalal 7abeebty shfeek galabtay" she asked.

"Mako" i said.. Depressed.

I got up alone and just went to my room.

"Dalal .." She looked at me sadly.. I guess she knows why.

She came and hugged me.

We layed down on the bed and probably just fell asleep.

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She looks at me then the direction im looking at .. She saw him! 

   "Fa6oom ta3alay weyay" i said .. Getting up and heading to yousef with her.

I got closer to yousef.

   "Shlonik ? Shakhbarik ? Yousef akeed tathkirny" i said with a raspy voice.

He was insanely shocked.

I looked at him, i'm pretty sure he saw anger through my eyes.

I had an idea and it was perfect.

I started yelling my ass off!!

     "GA3D YT7ARASH FEENNYYY" i said, i continued yelling.

 

Next thing i know, m7amad and 3azooz running towards him and yousef running away.

They ended up bl police departement discussing his consequences. 

I felt releif.

M7amad called.

     "Aloo?" I said.

     "Halla dalal.. Tara khala9 yousef bl na'6arra y6la3 ba3ad sboo3 aw shay chthy " he said.

     "Ee ok" i said...

     "M7amad..?" I said.

     "3yoona" he replied.

      "Mshakoor 3ala ly sawaita 3ashany... Allah la y7rmny mnk" i said.

      "Ya ba3adhum laish ana mno 3ndy ghairich w omy a36ekom may 3yoony" he said.

I almost cried my ass off.

       "Ana asta2thin fa6om yaninatny t9arikh" i laughed.

       "Hehe okk ma3a isalamaa" he said.

        "Ma3a isalama" i said.

And ended the call.

Man ! He makes me smile, these moments of life where all you wanna do is smile. 

A7ba ? Maybe..

       "Fa6oom bakhith istemara w hal kharabee6 ba9ik 18 ma boga shay ya khara 3alemy asoog...3ad a3arf bas aby i practice" i said yelling.

       "Ee okk bas yalla 3ad mo bsayarty tawni m6al3at.ha" she said.

       "Inzain" i said giving her a (look). Hehe.

"Inzain fa6oom wadeny baity baro7 ayeb sayarat oboy" i said.

"Inshalla" she said.

We changed our clothes then headed to my house.

When we arrived.. It didnt feel like home, it felt like a haunted house, a place i didnt want to be near.

I opened the door and went in.

It was so silent, so sad.

I went to my parents room and got my dad's car key.

I started crying silently.

I went outside quickly and started the engine of my dadz car.

Fa6oom drove jdamy w ana waraha..khathaina low profiled roads to avoid any tafteesh.

We went to the chalet.

Driving an audi wasnt that hard nor bad but my dadz memory was distracting.

Finally after 45 mins wi9alna il chalet.

Once i went inside my room, i orginized my stuff then headed to the kitchen to eat.

3ad bacher thursday mo shar6 adawem.

I opened my laptop w searched for movies.

I kinda wanted to re-watch taken but that's too depressing. 

So i went outside to get some air.

Man those stars look amazing.

I started thinking of my urge to die.. Suicide but then i think again, i notice that i don't want to die, i just want to be saved. 

Faj2a someone grabbed me.. I turned around slowly and frightened. M7amad held me closer and just stared at me. 

I looked into his eyes but he looked through me. 

Within all my scars and complications, he took me under his arms easily. 

He kissed my forehead and hugge me so tight, tight enough to feel hid heartbeat beating next to mine. 

To be cont'd..

ATTENTION!!

THIS BLOG DOES NOT ENCOURAGE ANY OF THOSE AMORE BEHAVIORS! 

IT IS A FICTIONAL BLOG. 

Chapter 33

Dec 4

i woke up il '6ihur probably isa3a 2 w i packed up my bags and waited for fa6oom to come. i kinda had trouble walking around from the surgery. i sat on the bed and started at the mirror next to me. i noticed i look different. i had black bags under my eyes, my hair was a mess and man i need a hot bubble bath. i got up and fixed up a bit..put some decent make up on. fa6oom came in excited holding to paper cups mn bucks. 

"halla bl looz" she yelled sounding like a guy bl dewaniya. 

"hehe halla" i replied.

she took a bad and i took the other bag heading to thank my doctor then on my way out to the exit door. 

the second the exit door opened i was shocked but yet so extremely happy. all my friends were outside with flowers and balloons. they starting yelling and hugging me w faj2a m7ammad and youesf yshelony w dakhalony dakhil il sayara. i sat jdam yam m7ammad which was pretty awkward w l baji warra. 3azooz started to pull my hair and annoying me ..on freaking purpose so we had this cat fight thing b ni9 il 6reej. 

"heeeey ga3d asoog" m7ammad yelled.

"ohwa bidaaa" i yelled.

"chathabaa" 3azooz said b kil biroo.

"agool dalool laish ma 3a6aitona khabar inich dakhaltay l mistashfa wala shay" mnera asked.

"walla ma kaan wdy azeed hamkom" i replied.

"dalool shal kharabee6 i7na ahal ay hmom tgolen 3anha" she said. 

"kaalbaa" i said..and had a semi hug with her since we are in the car. 

we stayed silent.  

i looked at m7amad and smiled slightly not expecting he'd look at me but he did and i was speechless and blushed. 

"shabab ana yoo3ana" i said. 

        "Shnu mishtahya?" M7ammad asked.

        "Walla ay shay im starving" i said.

        "Tabeen prime and toast ?" Fa6oom asked.

        "Ee ok" i said.

The others agreed w m7amad headed to l bd3.

I turned on the radio on 88.8 wla t6la3 qniyat balqees majnon..hehe.

I was goofing around w at7arash bl kil bas i did feel like my stiches y3awron. Once the line balqees sang  " hatha mno .. Hatha il7lu mn na'6ra dawakhny..." M7amad turned slightly to me and smiles and gave me THAT look !!!! That look that makes you feel love in the air.

Wi9alna prime w we sat down.

I saw a familiar face. 

I recognized it and slowly swallowed my anger and urge of revenge.

I slowly held the menu and kept staring at him.

He looked at me and was shocked. 

I think he almost peed his pants.

        "Dalool haw shfeech ?" Fa6oom asked.

        "Mako" i said.

She look at me then the direction im looking at .. She saw him! 

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"Dalal sma3teny mn shway ?" He asked. 

I nodded yes...

 He came closer.

"Dalal.. Ana majnoon feech w akbar 7aywan iny ma gltlch mn zman wla i7tfa'6t feech.." He stopped talking and held my hand.." Dalal ana mst3d akh6bch" he looked straight through. I wasn't sure whether to freak out or act normal.

He kissed my forehead.

I didn't make a word. He held my hand and looked at it then slowly came closer to my neck..

I looked at him and said.."shfeek?" 

"Ga3d ashoof kl il jroo7 w ana ma knt mawjood 3ashan adaweha" he said.

I was shocked that he reallly did care about me.

I stayed silent.

"Dalool shfech sakta ?" He said.

"Mako madry shagol" i said.

"Hmm" he mumbled.

Fa6om came in with the food.

She came in happy hehe.

I asked her mita agdar a6la3 galat bacher.

I stayed silent unable to make a move ...to scared to send the wrong the signals. Time went by.. 

I started checking my phone and replying to people.

I started rewinding my life when i used yo annoy my family and make some dramatic actions in the middle of the living room.

I tried to close my eyes and rest but i was to busy worrying whether i am forced to marry m7amad.. Im too young to think of it. Eventually i might say yes.

I looked at fa6oom, she was on her phone and m7mamd was on his phone too.

"Shabab baroo7 ayeeeb bucks taboon ?" Fa6oom asked.

"La" i said.

M7amad nodded no.

We stayed alone again...so awkward. 

I closed my eyes to rest a bit.

I heard whispers ... Opened my eyes wla m7amad wasnt there nor fa6oom.

I called the nurse, w i asked her wain ra7aw galatlyy ina mshaw mn zman.

That was strange, i literally just fell asleep.

" wait there's no way i just fell asleep" i said.

"Ma'am you have been asleep for probably two hours" she replied.

Shiittt i fell asleep and they were still here so i sent an apology message to each fa6om and m7amad.

They both said it was totalllly okay bas i still felt so embarrassed.

I stayed bl hospital. 

Pretty much went back to sleep.

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..."Yalait law ta36eny eshara inich ga3da aw tsm3eeny..." He said.

"Dalal y7r ina ikhtich khalitich amanna 3ndy w ma i7tifa'6t b hal amanna l 7lwa. Kil ma ashoof il jroo7 3ala jismich a7s iny nathil 3ala kil dgeega '6aya3t.ha w ma knt warach. Dalal ana madry shga3d y9eer walak ana maynoon feech. Dalal ismich yhiz jabal." He said slowly, holding my hand tightly.

My heart beat was runin up and down.

I was shocked but more of it happy.

But then too scared to make the same mistake again.

"Dalal yalait tsm3eeny w i6amneeny inich ra7 tgomen" he said weakly, i think he was crying.

I summon every ounce of energy in my body. I summon all the strengths my friends and family gave me. I summon all the love i've got.

I squeezed his hand.

He grabbed my hand so tight.

"Dalaaal ?" He said frightened.

I openened my eyes.

I see a tear running down his face, another one too.

I tried to open my eyes wider.

It was tiring..but damn worth it.

I went back to black..a bit later i woke up and found nurses by my side, fa6oom and m7amad. They all were staring, waiting for me to respond.

I opened my eyes wide. Fa6oom cried like a baby and came to hug me. M7amad rfa3 eeda yashkir rabba.

Since that moment... I respect m7amad more and more, i felt even safer. 

They waited for me to talk..

I looked at them and smiled then looked up and whispered.." L7mdla".

The doctor came next to me.

"Dalal 7mdla 3asalamah" he said smiling.

"Allah ysalmk" i replied weakly.

"Dalal ily 9ar feech ohwa 3a9ab l galb '6arab 3ndch w galbch kan 3ala washk ina yogaf w wallah l7mdla ina gmtay la2anha mo3jiza l7mdla.." He kept talking about my heart's nerve and those stuff.

I asked him later mita a6la3 gal tomorrow l 3a9ir.

I hated staying in the hospital, it reminded me of every miserable thing happened to me.

They all went to some ma63am to get food, so i stayed alone.

Then faj2a m7amad came in.. 

I felt so weird, i was shy but scared but normal at the same time. He sat next to me.

"Dalal sma3teny mn shway ?" He asked. 

I nodded yes...

To be continued...