Chapter 30

I woke up but couldn't move nor open my eyes.

I heard whispers and got scared.

My heartbeat went faster, since the monitor went furious.

I calmed down a bit slowly.

Kept my lungs steady.

I wanted to scream, hold on to somone..but i just coudln't.

I had no abilities to make an action or anything. 

So i kept thinking, remembering memories.

My first thought was my elder sister.

We used to fight 24/7 over clothes and being over dramatic on everything we see hehe, too funny to just think about it.

And my younger brother, i used to wrestle with him big time, he would bleed from his feet or elbow but he wouldnt give a shit about it because he liked punching me in the face.

I suddenly remembered how fa6oom and i met. It was probably billion years ago when i accidentally spilled pepsi on her in school, i thought she hated me that instant but we kept on laughing that damn moment, tha's when i knew she had the purist heart. Fa6om is so kind and warm-hearted. Out of all my friends, she was the one i always felt comfortable around.

I wanted to cryyy. I wanted to go. I feel like im trapped in a cage and cant get out, not even having the ability of trying.

Someone held me hand.

It was definatley a girl's hand, probably fa6ma's.

"Dalal itha tsm3eeny aw la2 ana fa6oom" she cried.

"Tkfain saway shay! Rmshay aw r39ay 3ala eedy aw 7arkay ay shay bas gomay yr7am omich gomay" she cried so bad i could feel her head next to my arm.

I felt like hugging her.

I felt like holding her.

I just couldn't.

Someone else came and held my other hand.

"Dalal ana m7amad tkfain ay shay bas 6amneena" he said.

His voice weakned.

All i could do was listen and die from the inside.

A bit later, someone knocked on the door then held my hand and took the drip and probably placed another one, i figured it was the nurse.

Im sick of it. So i just sat there, as if i had a choice. 

I prayed to god, to forgive me for all the sins i have caused.

I prayed until my brain exploded.

I went blank, slept.

Back concious, i guess a bit later.

I kept on praying. Talking silently with my imaginary parents.

I feel like im dead.

Someone came next to me,

I can feel the warmth of their breathe,

That person held my hand, muscular i guess.

"Dalal ana m7amad" he said.

"Yalait law ta36eny eshara inich ga3da aw tsm3eeny..." He said.

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Chapter 29

... I tried to push him off.

"Yousef !" I said.

But he kept undressing me. I almost cried. 

"Yousef shfeek" i said.

He kept telling me im beautiful.

I had tears falling down my face. He took off my shirt ! I started yelling from the bottom of my lungs. 

"FA6MAAAAAAAAA!!!!" I shouted. 

The door was locked and fa6oom kept pushing it.

I cried and tried to push him away.

He hit me with a bottle on my shoulder. He hit me again on my head. I lost it. Everything was black.

I lost it.

I woke up in a white room. Feels like my misery started all over again. I got up as fast as i could and tried to run but noticed my arm was bleeding seems like i ripped the niddle by accident. My head spun, way to dizzy.

I yelled and cried and saw fa6om running towards me. 

She hugged me and wiped off my tears. I was confused, alarmed, dead-like.

"Fa6oom" i said.

"Halla 7abeebty" she replied.

"Shga3d y9eer w shnu 9ar ?" I asked ,shaking.

"Hadday a39abich la tkhafeen fahma sh8a9dich" she said.

I looked at her.

"Yousef broo7a wagaf laman shaf dam yanzl mn rasich" she said.

I cried.

She hugged me.

I cant believe this.. Yousef the one person i used to feel safe around, turned out to be the one person i should be scared of.

Howcome his smile kept all those feelings away.

I tried to breath.

"7abeebtyy fee a7ad na6rich bara" she said.

"Mno ?" I asked.

"M7amad" she replied.

Wow.. Great to have someone that would ne there everytime you fall into a hole, and that person is ready to get you out of it.

Fa6oom is much more than that, that's why i dont call her my rescuer i just call her my sister. 

I got up a bit and fixed my hair. Then wrapped myself with the blanket and held the coffee fa6om got me.

He came in.

Handsome as usual.

He came in pissed. I was confused.

He sat next to me and fa6om headed out.

"Shlonich dalal ?" He asked. His face was red.

"L7mdla" i replied, with a weak voice.

I felt a tick down my chest, almost a scratch.

"Hal kalb waina bnaktha lyom" he said.

"Haddy m7amad ma 9ar shay" i said, scared.

"Shnu ahady l khara kan by'3ta9bich wintay 3ady walla chna 9ar shay" he said.

"La shnu 3ady 3ndy bas ana mo mist3da ina twa9ikh eedik 3alay walla ina ismy yntshr bldeera" i said.

I felt another tick, but this time i felt pain and gave me a hard time to breath.

"Dalal ma 3ndy mani3 awa9ikh eedy 3ashanich.." He stopped talking.

 He probably saw me closing my eyes hard trying to breath.

" dalal shfeech?" He asked.

I was paralyzed i couldn't talk nor move. I was into that third world.

I was dizzy and felt dead. I heard loud beeps and felt light and noise, people coming in. I went unconcious.

I woke up but couldn't open my eyes. I was speaking but couldn't open my mouth. I wasn't moving.

I heard fa6oomz voice..crying.

They were whispering.

I felt like someone was coming closer.

"Dalal itha tsm3eny aw la2, t7sen aw la2, ra7 a'6il weyach 6ool ma ana 3aysha" that was fa6oomz voice crying.

I fixed the puzzle, im in a comma, i am paralyzed. 

Chapter 28

..And looked straight at him. 

I smiled.

"Dalal? " he said.

"Halla" i replied.rf

"Ya zeenich wallah" he said.

I blushed.

We walked inside and ate lunch. I was starving literally. 

We stayed in the living room for a bit then fa6oom and i started doing school work while yousef plays with my hair. 

In about an hour i finished all my work, i was so tired bas ma gdart aroo7 anam cuz yousef was here. So i decided to watch a movie w 3ala 7a'6y they were airing the movie "friends with benefits" w yousef w fa6oom always wanted to watch it la2ana y'6a7k, god knows why yousef was diggin it. I went to make some popcorn and get sodas. Fa6oom started the movie while yousef was sitting. 

I went to sit next to him and fa6oom sat next to me.

He wrapped his arms around me. I kissed his neck. I smelled amazing. That manly kinda perfume where you get suddenly swooned..

.hehe ya that one. We kept watching the movie until the wind breeze came by and the movie was heating up, things kinds got uncomfortable. so i headed to my room to change. I opened the closet to get something warm. I made sure my door was closed then took off my jacket. Someone held me from behind. I turned around. It was yousef. i smiled.

"Hehe yousef yalla barra babadil" i said.

He stayed silent and started kissing me. Next thing i know his hands were on my shirt. He started taking them off. I kinda felt very uncomfortable:/ 

Faj2a he opened my pants zipper. 

"Yousef shga3d tsawi ?" I yelled, maybe almost cried. 

I slapped him, but he wouldn't stop..

To be continued....

Chapter 27

Chapter 27
december 1, sunday
I woke up at 8, already late for school. I washed then got dressed then went outside to the living room and sat toeat breakfast with fa6oom. She bought me bucks. We were talking about school work. We got up then fa6om hugged me... I felt like crying but i kept it in. She tried to calm me down and told me yousef is going to be perfectly fine. But yet i dont know why the fight happened.
We went to the car abd headed to the school. No one in school knows what happened l7mdla ya3ny mako gossip. Every thing seemed so normal. A9lan no one knowa about my relationship with yousef. I went to my classes and it was an ordinary school day.
Fa6oom and i headed to the car.
" dalal shfeeechh mikta2ba ?" Fa6oom asked.
"Mafeeny shay" i said.
"Yalla 3ad t3almeeny feech ?" She said.
"Fa6oom ga3da a7aty yousef" i said.
"Ma feeh ila l3afya" she said.
Then she calmed me down.
We were in the car 15 minutes so far. Suddenly my phone rang...YOUSEF.
I answered immediately.
"Aloo?" I said.
"Halla dalal" he sounded weak, tired.
"Yousef sh9aar ams waink ikhtifait w laish u were in a fight" i said yelling at him.
"Hadday dalal mafy shay kan soo2 tafahum" he said.
"Shnu ahaddy sh9ar ? Int al7een waink ?" I repeatedly asked.
"Dalal 7abeebty kanat bnt 3amity mny w ihya tadry ana knt b hilton w fee wa7ash mit7arsheen feeha b8ilat adab.. R7t akalmhom b 2adab ohma klab ma yfhom w rab3y kila mnak fza3oli" he said... Then continued.." Dalal 7abeebty mafeny shay la t7ateen bas ra'6at w inshalla bacher mdawem" he said.
I stayed silent. I started crying bas bdon ma yousef ysma3.
"Dalool la tabchen tkfaain" he said.
I didnt answer.
"Dalal? " he said.
I still didnt answer.
"7ayatiii ?" he said.
I was quite but blushing w it was on speaker fa fa6oom tsma3 w mayta w ihya tgol cute b9oo6 wa6y.
"Galby?" He said.
I stayed silent.
"A7ibich" he said.
"Amoot feek" i replied.
Ya 7alat 9oo6a w ohwa tawa gayem mn inoom.
"Dalal ?" He said.
"3yoonha" i replied.
"Fdait.hum" he said.. Then continued.."dalal bagolich shay" he said.
"Gool" i answered him.
"Wainich al7een?" He asked.
"W9alt l chalet Hatha ily btgola " i laughed.
"Laa shay thany" he said.
"Haaa yalla gool" i said.
"Uuufff 7ady dayekh l mohim bagool ina sakray jan6itch ilsa7ab maftoo7" he said.
I turned around and saw him.
I ran and hugged him so hard.
I literally jumped. I felt like i havent seen him for a really long time.
 I could feel his heartbeat and warmth.

"Hehe sh7alat ree7tich" he said.
I laughed but elegantly.
"A7bk" i whispered.
He hugged me harder.
"Wallah ana akthar" he said.
I wrapped my arms around his neck.
And looked straight at him.
I smiled.
"Dalal? " he said...
To be continued....

chapter 26

i opened the door w saw the guy with a husky…obviously my husky. i got so happy, then saw yousef next to me. i held the dog and had a bit of fun then went to talk with the guy for the payments..faj2a fa6oom called me..

"fa6oom la7tha badfa3" i said.

"laa7thaa" she said and grabbed my arm.

wila i saw the guy yamshy…

"haw laish misha badfa3laaaa" i said.

"ta3aly khala9 mala da3y" yousef said and handed the dog.

"ma fahamt" i said. 

"khala9 agoolich yalla dakhil labsatly g9eer w bard" he said…wla astaw3b ina he bought me the dog.

i was mad at first..but then went back to reality and thanked him.  isa3a 6 blail il dinya thalimat..the girls headed to bucks to get some coffee while 3azooz jahaz il ga3da bara wl bbq w ana w yousef ga3den 3al ba7ar nitmasha. he held my hand then wrapped me around his arms…i stopped and looked at him..and..

"yousef..a7bk" i said.

he looked at me then hugged me and held the back of my hand and kissed my forehead.

"amoot feech" he replied. 

His eyes were charming. he was my own live heaven. distracting me from all the pain i have been through, my shield.

he played with my hair..tickled my neck. i stared at the sky, took a breathe. the wind breeze gave me the chills.

"dalool bardana ?" he asked.

"shway" i replied.

he hugged me tight. he was warm, inside out. i wrapped my hand around his neck. he held my waist. i look straight at him. he kissed my neck then up to my checks then my lips. strange how the small things build up a mountain. we went back to the bbq. 

i went to my room to change into warm clothes. i wore a black hoodie with leggings. let my hair down. realised my hair is getting longer. i went back outside and sat on yousef's lap. 

"banat" i said.

"halla" they replied.

"bacher baroo7 shopping okay ?" i asked.

"eee yabeela…any new clothes" fa6oom said.

the husky….well i called her lola sat next to us. 

we talked, had fun, laughed until midnight…the girls had to leave.

3azooz took them home. yousef and fa6oom stayed. 

"shwaay w raj3" yousef said.

"hhaa wain " i said.

"kaa mny bas shway" he said…that was strange.

anyways we stayed for half an hour ..w ma ya so ana w fa6oom timashaina.. will as hoof yousef. ma shabab, wayyyyd. 

garabt shway. ga3adt ashoop wila faj2a the guy in front of yousef hits yousef. i yelled. the boys were fighting…7ail. yousef was busting someone's face. there was blood. i wanted to run to yousef but fa6oom grabbed my arm and shut my mouth with her hand. 

my heart just stopped watching yousef getting hit. police came and took them all. i cried on fa6oomz shoulder. she took me back to chalet i was shocked, couldn't sleep…all my energy drained. i slept…finally two hours later.